Let's see, it's been about..3 weeks into summer vacation, and yet I've done nothing...well maybe not nothing because I am learning how to drive, but other than that, I have done nothing. This is the summer that I need to seriously build and work on my portfolio, and I really need to look at colleges and research them and visit them, but noooo, my laziness kicks in every day. It's like I overdosed on it (wow I really can't write, this sounds like a fifth grader's blog, well actually, a fifth grader would probably write better). Help me GOD, help me not procrastinate anymore!!!!!!
lollipop lollipop, o lolli lolli lolli...this song just started playing in my head....
Lollipop
damn if you type lollipop in youtube, everything but the original comes...sigh.....but I finally found what I was looking for...
Reality?....no, nightmare. Time for a change of heart
Sometimes it's difficult to perceive dreaming from reality until you fully wake up. The worst type of nightmare though is a reoccurring one in the same night. When you think that you've escaped from the nightmare after waking up once, it haunts you again when you fall back asleep. This very incident happened to me last night. Now if this was just a regular old nightmare I had because of a scary movie I've seen, I think I'd be able to handle it, but this one was completely different. It's the type of nightmare that reminds you that life is short and you should live with no regrets.
What I'm trying to say is, last night, I had a dream that...actually let me go into a little bit of detail, very little. Basically in my dream, my mom just came back from work and like always she ate rice and was going to sleep..it all took place in the morning in my dream. She was pretty silent as she ate, and then after, she did the strangest thing...well not really strange, but it's almost as if she knew something. She smiled at me this odd smile, almost as if she was saying goodbye through her mind, and then she went into her room, closed the door, and went to sleep. The next thing I remember in my dream was we found my mom dead. She died peacefully in her sleep. I remember crying countless times in my dream because I regretted many things that I should've done before this happened. I kept thinking to myself in my dream, and praying, "Please say she's not really dead. Theres so much we have to do. She can't just die. Please bring her back to life." Then, I woke up. When I woke up, I remember praying to god, "Please let that only remain a nightmare, please don't let that happen." So then, I went back to sleep, and the same thing happened, but this time it was almost as if I was given another chance, but it still happened. Soon however, my mom actually came back from work in the morning, and I completely woke up, and after she went to the basement, I thanked God over and over for not letting my nightmare happen. (*ok maybe the details weren't so little)
Now I'm a person that rarely believes in signs from god, well actually not rarely, I mean I do believe in signs, but just not when it comes to marriage or things like that. So anyway, I think god, or maybe just my conscience, is trying to tell me that I should have a change of heart because I'm never going to know when something devastating may happen. So I should live life to the fullest, and live without any regrets. I should especially show more consideration and care for my parents. I mean I love them and all, but sometimes it's hard to show it. So from now on, lifes gonna be different, and I'll change it for the better. This is also for all of you too. You should live life to the fullest because when something does happen, you'll know that you have nothing to regret.
Today was pretty much a typical summer day for me, boring, nothing to do, except for one fact, I drove for the first time today! I must say, that after driving today, I can't stop thinking about it. I really want to drive again. Today was just my first driving class though, so unfortunately, my parents won't allow me to drive our car because according to them, I'm not experienced enough =(. Well, that is kinda true.
I think I felt the power of the wheel when I was sitting up there in the driver's seat, gripping the rubber steering wheel, and revving up the car's engine.
It was all fun, and educational I guess, until people started honking at me, pretty rude you know, but then again if I was one of them, I guess I'd be pretty aggravated too because there's a slow car that won't move. But still, they should consider the fact that the car says STUDENT DRIVER in clear bold letters, and that the STUDENT DRIVER DOESN'T WANT TO KILL ANYONE OR HERSELF so shes driving slow and steady.
Goodness, don't these people understand that slow and steady wins the race?, but then again that has nothing to do with the concept of driving. Anyway, I can't wait until tomorrow's lesson because that means more DRIVING!!!!VROOM VROOM!!, ahh I wanna drive so bad!!
fast and furious..drift drift...fast and furious...drift drift drift..
Happy cuatro de julio to everyone!! All over America people are celebrating this awesome holiday, America's independence day...truly awesome. Everyone is celebrating, but once again one boring household does nothing...guess whose...yep, mine..but it is pretty nice to hear the fireworks outside. I can't wait until I finally get my license because then I'm definitely going to go to the beach next year for July 4. Well for those of you who are celebrating, HAVE AN AWESOME AWESOME TIME!! (you know, I think I say awesome way too much lol, oh well).
I get so excited the last few days of school because summer vacation is on it's way, but when it finally comes time, I realize that I have nothing to do. I'm so damn lazy. I won't leave my computer screen. What I want to do is get out and have fun, hang out with friends...do crazy stuff lol, well maybe not extremely crazy, but I wanna make the most of the summer of junior year, because this is the last summer left that I know that I'm actually gonna go back to school, because the summer of senior year is gonna be a new beginning or at least preparation for a new beginning. Ahhh I need a job!!!!!!!!, that was random...but I REALLY NEED A JOB!!! AHHH!!! One of my goals for this summer was to get a job, and yet I sit in front of the computer all day. This week concludes the first week of summer vacation, and yet I've accomplished nothing...*sigh.....I'm soo bored!!!
